I am doing better…

I just wanted to do a quick blog to let everyone know that I am doing better… a few people voiced their concern that I had not written a blog in a few days and that they were worried about me. Thank you all for your concern !!!!

The day following my last blog was a total blank to me… I had a dissociative episode and I remember nothing of that day. I realized that when I came out of this last episode, that I had friended someone on Facebook and now I have no idea who she is, let alone where I found her. She seemed like a sweet person so I thanked her for adding me and kept her as a friend because I was too embarrassed to say…. “hey I was in a dissociative state when I added you, and now I have no idea who you are.” Has anyone else ever been through this? This is very scary to me!

Yesterday was a better day, however I did not want to jinx the day by blogging about it, I have a tendency of doing that; as soon as I blog about something good in my life…it turns to hell in a hand basket the very moment it posts; So I waited till tonight to write about what had happened and that yes, in fact I am doing better.

It is 12:57 am and I am actually tired, which is a good thing I hope… I say that because I do not want to spiral down into a deep depression. I tend to do that after a dissociative episode… and sometimes it takes weeks to recover from. Not fun at all, especially since summer is right around the corner and at times these deep depressions last for many weeks even months and I would hate to lose my summer only to come out of it just in time for winter…. that would suck !!! I hope all of you are doing well and I send my love !!!!